Nistha

So recently I realize that the sum of it all is to just surrender submissively and sincerely.

Je anilo prema dhana

(1)
je ānilo prema-dhana koruṇā pracur
heno prabhu kothā gelā ācārya-ṭhākur

(2)
kāhā mora swarūp rūpa kāhā sanātan
kāhā dāsa raghunātha patita-pāvan

(3)
kāhā mora bhaṭṭa-juga kāhā kavirāj
eka-kāle kothā gelā gorā naṭa-rāj

(4)
pāṣāṇe kuṭibo māthā anale paśibo
gaurāńga guṇera nidhi kothā gele pābo

(5)
se-saba sańgīra sańge je koilo bilās
se-sańga nā pāiyā kānde narottama dās

TRANSLATION

1) He who brought the treasure of divine love and who was filled with compassion and mercy--where has such a personality as Advaita Acarya gone?

2) Where are my Svardpa Damodara and Rupa Gosvami? Where is Sanatana? Where is Raghunatha Dasa, the savior of the fallen?

3) Where are my Raghunatha Bhatta and Gopala Bhatta, and where is Krsnadasa Kaviraja? Where did Lord Gauranga, the great dancer, suddenly go?

4) I will smash my head against the rock and enter into the fire. Where will I find Lord Gauranga, the reservoir of all wonderful qualities?

5) Being unable to obtain the association of Lord Gauranga accompanied by all of these devotees in whose association He performed His pastimes, Narottama Dasa simply weeps.

I pray that one day I can feel such attachment for guru and Gauranga and stop weeping over material attachments. I pray that I can be sincere enough to cherish the holy name of Krishna and that I may follow the regulative principles and chant my minimum rounds through eternity till Goloka come.

Attachments in this material world

Walking past a tree of white flowers that resemble jasmine on campus, I am filled with nostalgia, the rain the cold weather, all remind me of a time gone by, people gone by.

Its feelings that make us human yet those very feelings and discrimination cause hurdles in both material and spiritual life. The effect of the material life has ripple effects on the spiritual life by virtue of the mind. All of these experiences leave impressions on the mind which don't go away. They come up so subtly affecting us more than we think they can, depending on how conscious a person is off course.

Another thing I've noticed recently is the wide array of personalities there are around us especially being here as a student in university. Each personality comes with different levels of conscience, propensity to enjoy the body, propensity to succeed. These coverings overlap the soul and and when we do attempt to attain some spiritual progress! BHAM!!!

So this Bhakti Yoga is meant to control emotions, chanting to control the mind- the mind is very very difficult to control. Especially when within it lie all of these good and bad impression that we carry from the time we are born.

I just pray that I'm sincere enough to overcome these obstacles and control the mind focusing it on the greater cause, and most of all I pray that everyone from the past present and future of my life are helped by God to the right paths and peaceful states of being.

This is somewhat totally of what my blog was intended to be but often due to pride issues of the mind and emotions are overlooked

One good piece of advice I've received recently was that to know God one needs to know oneself.
Know your strengths, know that you're good, not to the stage of false ego and pride, but know yourself enough to the extent you know that you do need anyone else to complete you in a material sense. Do not become dependent on others to validate your existence if you are truelly aware that you are a spirit soul. It can be very difficult but nothing is impossible.

Know yourself enough to know those around you. Trust but do not over step the limits of trust.